Get out get out I want you out of my head But you won’t stay out stay out you’re running back here instead Been living in doubt, no doubt I’m running circles again Cuz I’ve been thinking’ bout all the ways I always loved to play pretend I’ll fade away Cuz I can’t keep myself in place Ive got no body else to blame besides myself And I ran away Holding my breath It’s getting harder just to breathe I should’ve confessed Now I’m just trying to believe I put out my best foot But I’m tripping over Things I can’t change I guess I’m only wasting my time I don’t think that you understand That I don’t want to see your face until I’m six feet in I don’t think that you understand There’s a reason that I bounced out in the very end I don’t think you’d care But I can’t blame you that just isn’t fair I dug a hole and got stuck I’m running fresh out of luck But that’s the price for living unprepared Lie with me Just lie to me So I can feel the pain I push around and let it breathe I can’t believe how long I dragged this out

Living life in a fantasy I can’t help myself When I lose the ground beneath me And I’m finding nothing underneath Heavy heart I just drown myself In a sea of thoughts that I can’t seem to get out of now Am I stuck in hell Can I just come up to breathe? Pressure Feeling like I might explode But I know that it’s just not healthy Holding on to what can’t grow Get out get out get out I Can’t get over you Please just Stay out Stay out Stay out I don’t have room for you Think back I don’t wanna believe That everybody has the same bad intentions for me But I can’t stop myself From these thoughts expelled Even though it’s just make believe I don’t really care The faster I get out of here The quicker I can find myself And find a way to disappear To some over the place Ready to give up the chase I just can’t afford that peace So here I go again I’m losing inside my head I’ll understand When means justify an end  

I should’ve known that I would Fuck this up again Too busy running from these demons In my head I don’t really wanna believe But I Know Everybody will eventually reap what they sow All the strings that are pulling on me I would’ve never agreed But that’s what happens when things are outgrown I learned that the further on back that you look You’ll find even bigger mistakes And get hooked I guess it got harder for me To let it go it but it seems I gotta find me a future outlook I just blame myself For how you came you went I can’t seem to bury feelings In the graves we choice to dig I’m just over it all If I can recall You told me that the faster I fall The faster you’ll crawl to watch me undo I should’ve known that I would Fuck this up again Too busy running from these demons In my head I won’t forget it The walls are painted With all my thoughts That feel so tainted From my frustration That sits and rots Face down on the floor again Nobody understands The pain that I keep in It never ends I won’t forget it The walls are painted With all my thoughts That feel so tainted From my frustration That sits and rots Stuck in place I don’t wanna lead myself astray I don’t really wanna be myself today I can’t compete With disarray So what’s the point When I can’t sort it out Got a hundred different ways that I can live in doubt Losing everything and everyone I care about When I’m down and out Feeling like de javu I’ve gotta restart I’m losing over and over again Done feeling guilty I just wanna figure my shit out and bounce Without a doubt

Guilty I didn’t know this was inside of me But here I am a broken shell again From picking pieces off the floor I feel like I’ve been here before I keep on living day by day I’m losing all of my friends I’m losing control again I’m living Desperately I’m holding on to the past Good memories never last Why won’t they last Back and forth Inside my head You ran around And built your walls too tall again I tried to let myself back in I made the same mistake of Caring to begin Take a look around Cuz you can’t seem to read the room too well But that’s okay cuz I’ll just tell you how it felt To lose myself like everyone else But I can’t help but still just feeling guilty Round and round when will this end I hate this cycle built upon my discontent I’m pushing past the hope I live without this mess Cuz I can tell the damage done just can’t be fixed I fucked it up Now I’m feeling stuck And you hate my guts But I get it It’s not black or white But that’s half the fight And I get if you’re just not with it I’m holding on To what I know is wrong And it’s always gone when I get it I don’t want to hurt no more But I just can’t help feeling

Watch the time fly by As I learn to live my life without you I really can’t decide If holding on to The damage done to To the things I touched is right As I watch my life pass by without you I’m holding on to my truth Wishing I could just feel something new Fed up I don’t think you care I don’t want to drag you down over and over again Fed up I don’t think I care I don’t want to drag you down over and over again I’m sorry I thought I just misspoke When I said the thoughts in my head Don’t add up they’re just broke I found out the truth hurts That I’m damaged beyond repair Cuz I can’t hold back what I’m feeling within I’m sick of running round with my despair Drown out the distance It’s what I hate the most I just need you close But I won’t excuse What I damaged or used cuz I know that just wouldn’t be fair Patience I’m losing patience I need to face this Before I begin To lose my Patience I’m losing patience I need to face this Before I close up And let all of this swallow me whole

I’ll say goodbye To what I thought I knew it meant to be alive Run back and forth inside my head I’ve been counting every reason just to try and make this all make sense But I keep on coming back with all these Wounds to stitch No room to switch All my panic into something I can Use to fix My selfishness How long will I just sit And watch the disconnection grow Til it can’t be fixed The damage done That’s the consequence Of burning bridges That you shouldn’t have lit Straight down I just think it’s hard to pretend we’re straight now I can’t shake them the complications That I found Searching for a future without you Lusting for something that feels brand new Wishing you could feel just like I do Straight down I can’t look myself in the mirror Holding on til I can see clearer Hoping I can piece things together I’ve got myself to blame Nobody else but me For my lack of happiness I just gave up and that was it I just don’t think it’s right for me To live so selfishly Why do I always play pretend Only holding back what I’m feeling within

I’ll tear myself apart But I guess That’s the only way I know how to deal with this stress Coming fast Looking over my shoulder It feels like I’m living with these problems over and over I digress Cuz I’m not focusing On what’s best For myself as far as I can see The broken part of me That I keep buried deep Only heals when I wear it open on my sleeve No bark all bite I won’t let life just pass me by Too many times That I just threw myself aside To finally find Another wall I need to climb I’m just over this I’m just over calling quits I told myself that I just can’t go and rely On damaged goods to fill the hills up deep inside I’ll never find the answers looking from behind These broken eyes They never looked quite satisfied So Here we go again Everything I put together fell apart within But its hard When I’m not positive Where to put the pieces found that aren’t worth salvaging Cuz it’s wrong That I keep focusing On everything except the problem put in front of me I keep ignoring things Instead of finding peace In hopes that everything eventually will in fall place

I’ve been out of touch Losing feeling but the pain I used as my crutch There’s nothing left inside my head like there ever was There’s a reason I won’t bend I won’t ever budge I think back honestly On every time I didn’t live my life with honesty Cuz that’s not who I want to be Cuz I don’t want to face life hostilely But that’s hard when I live constantly In denial bout the lies that I hide in me Is this all my in head Just made up again I’ll just bury all my doubts deep underground Make something from nothing I’ll always fixate on I keep running to the past to fix myself Find nothing to help me I’m always searching wrong Too many times I didn’t know that I was on the edge Of falling back Into old habits I regret I’ll just bury all my doubts deep underground Make something from nothing I’ll always fixate on So did I do enough With all the time I spent I’ve been giving up Or was this all for nothing Pathetic bluffing Cuz I just think its only right that I live for something I can’t shake it off Every time I think about it I just pay the cost I can’t help but feel more lost Every time I take a step I’m tripping over lust But it’s hard when I keep losing trust In myself now I keep on living in a rut Its all my in head Just made up again

I’ve been living real fast Living everyday like it could just be my last Cause I know everything you think you put in the past Always finds a way to come around and kick you in the ass But that’s cool I can see That everybody talks everybody talks like they know Best for me Like anybody lives anybody lives happily I won’t fade out My life’s disguised As a gift I’m handed that I try to hide When all along I’ve just been told to swallow pride I’m sick of doing this on my own I’ll be fine I just want to find my home I’ll Fortify Every wall I built around me I won’t apologize I’m just building myself up to the ceiling I won’t break out I’ll face myself Take a real good look inside Exposing all the thoughts you hide Take a real good look inside And tell me everything you find And if you’re really satisfied

Woke up the same way Never feels like a new day Always stuck in a bad dream Why can’t I wake up But how can I face this When I’m self medicated I’m just filled up with hatred Rotting to the bone I was on my own Just staring at the phone Left here thinking bout the people And the places I call home I’m so confused I know I’ll sort it out And find some common ground I just need to find the pieces That I know will fill this hole So stay way I’m not what you think I didn’t wanna be this Broken I can feel it Down to my bones But I should’ve known This isn’t how I heal this Selfish in my dealings I don’t know how to fix myself for you Well do you Cuz I just play it off well Playing dumb still Waiting for you While I’m just pulling myself in two I’ve been running in circles Looking for what’s essential Only finding residual It’s just not enough Things got so complicated Can you feel my frustration It’s the only foundation I keep putting up I play pretend With what I’m feeling within I’m pushing everyone away That gives a fuck about me So I’ll just end up alone It ends up feeling like home But that’s okay cuz I’ve been dealing with these thoughts on my own I’ll just pull myself in two Can’t you feel the weight Get heavier with time

I’ve been looking for some peace For some happiness But the pain is all I really comprehend I Hit a wall Thought it’d fall I just can’t pretend That I didn’t think about it til the very end But that’s okay cuz I’ll just do this again I’m all talk I can’t get over the things I’m convinced are my fault It’s a curse that I just can’t reverse But that’s okay I’d rather live with pain Than live in life in vain Fade out fade out I don’t wanna be kept around Where I know that I’m not wanted I’m just holding on for nothing Think back I was over the fence But I froze Regret all the choices I made But I know How I act Lately feels kinda whack But that doesn’t just excuse The damage that I produce I always thought that this couldn’t be me Now I lost Everything that’s feels important to me At what cost In the end I just tripped up again Now I’m playing pretend I’m playing pretend to agree

I’m living fast I won’t fight my past So I can find a way to pull myself up out of this hell I built for myself It’s hard to believe I know But that’s the fantasy I filled up with fallacy I don’t think it’s right for me To force things selfishly I know all along I was busy focused on How I was wronged Instead of fixing issues I run I don’t really care Where I go from here Just get me out of this mess Get me out of my head Cuz I felt Weighed down By doubt Alway question how I don’t belong Where did I go wrong I don’t really wanna see The darkest parts of me Shine some light into my life And let it breathe I’m sinking lower and lower and lower again I’m sinking down to the bottom Right where I began In the back of my head I always try to make sense Of all the answers that I find From searching deep down within