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SSX Trickmont
03:18
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Get out get out I want you out of my head
But you won’t stay out stay out you’re running back here instead
Been living in doubt, no doubt I’m running circles again
Cuz I’ve been thinking’ bout all the ways I always loved to play pretend
I’ll fade away
Cuz I can’t keep myself in place
Ive got no body else to blame besides myself
And I ran away
Holding my breath
It’s getting harder just to breathe
I should’ve confessed
Now I’m just trying to believe
I put out my best foot
But I’m tripping over
Things I can’t change
I guess I’m only wasting my time
I don’t think that you understand
That I don’t want to see your face until I’m six feet in
I don’t think that you understand
There’s a reason that I bounced out in the very end
I don’t think you’d care
But I can’t blame you that just isn’t fair
I dug a hole and got stuck
I’m running fresh out of luck
But that’s the price for living unprepared
Lie with me
Just lie to me
So I can feel the pain
I push around and let it breathe
I can’t believe how long I dragged this out
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2. |
Two's A Party
03:25
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Living life in a fantasy
I can’t help myself
When I lose the ground beneath me
And I’m finding nothing underneath
Heavy heart
I just drown myself
In a sea of thoughts that I can’t seem to get out of now
Am I stuck in hell
Can I just come up to breathe?
Pressure
Feeling like I might explode
But I know that it’s just not healthy
Holding on to what can’t grow
Get out get out get out
I Can’t get over you
Please just
Stay out Stay out Stay out
I don’t have room for you
Think back
I don’t wanna believe
That everybody has the same bad intentions for me
But I can’t stop myself
From these thoughts expelled
Even though it’s just make believe
I don’t really care
The faster I get out of here
The quicker I can find myself
And find a way to disappear
To some over the place
Ready to give up the chase
I just can’t afford that peace
So here I go again
I’m losing inside my head
I’ll understand
When means justify an end
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3. |
Liminal
03:35
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I should’ve known that I would
Fuck this up again
Too busy running from these demons
In my head
I don’t really wanna believe
But I Know
Everybody will eventually reap what they sow
All the strings that are pulling on me
I would’ve never agreed
But that’s what happens when things are outgrown
I learned that the further on back
that you look
You’ll find even bigger mistakes
And get hooked
I guess it got harder for me
To let it go it but it seems
I gotta find me a future outlook
I just blame myself
For how you came you went
I can’t seem to bury feelings
In the graves we choice to dig
I’m just over it all
If I can recall
You told me that the faster I fall
The faster you’ll crawl to watch me undo
I should’ve known that I would
Fuck this up again
Too busy running from these demons
In my head
I won’t forget it
The walls are painted
With all my thoughts
That feel so tainted
From my frustration
That sits and rots
Face down on the floor again
Nobody understands
The pain that I keep in
It never ends
I won’t forget it
The walls are painted
With all my thoughts
That feel so tainted
From my frustration
That sits and rots
Stuck in place
I don’t wanna lead myself astray
I don’t really wanna be myself today
I can’t compete
With disarray
So what’s the point
When I can’t sort it out
Got a hundred different ways that I can live in doubt
Losing everything and everyone I care about
When I’m down and out
Feeling like de javu
I’ve gotta restart
I’m losing over and over again
Done feeling guilty
I just wanna figure my shit out and bounce
Without a doubt
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4. |
Day By Day
03:44
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Guilty
I didn’t know this was inside of me
But here I am a broken shell again
From picking pieces off the floor
I feel like I’ve been here before
I keep on living day by day
I’m losing all of my friends
I’m losing control again
I’m living Desperately
I’m holding on to the past
Good memories never last
Why won’t they last
Back and forth
Inside my head
You ran around
And built your walls too tall again
I tried to let myself back in
I made the same mistake of
Caring to begin
Take a look around
Cuz you can’t seem to read the room too well
But that’s okay cuz I’ll just tell you how it felt
To lose myself like everyone else
But I can’t help but still just feeling guilty
Round and round when will this end
I hate this cycle built upon my discontent
I’m pushing past the hope I live without this mess
Cuz I can tell the damage done just can’t be fixed
I fucked it up
Now I’m feeling stuck
And you hate my guts
But I get it
It’s not black or white
But that’s half the fight
And I get if you’re just not with it
I’m holding on
To what I know is wrong
And it’s always gone when I get it
I don’t want to hurt no more
But I just can’t help feeling
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5. |
Moxie
02:38
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Watch the time fly by
As I learn to live my life without you
I really can’t decide
If holding on to
The damage done to
To the things I touched is right
As I watch my life pass by without you
I’m holding on to my truth
Wishing I could just feel something new
Fed up
I don’t think you care
I don’t want to drag you down over and over again
Fed up
I don’t think I care
I don’t want to drag you down over and over again
I’m sorry
I thought I just misspoke
When I said the thoughts in my head
Don’t add up they’re just broke
I found out the truth hurts
That I’m damaged beyond repair
Cuz I can’t hold back what I’m feeling within I’m sick of running round with my despair
Drown out the distance
It’s what I hate the most
I just need you close
But I won’t excuse
What I damaged or used cuz I know that just wouldn’t be fair
Patience
I’m losing patience
I need to face this
Before I begin
To lose my
Patience
I’m losing patience
I need to face this
Before I close up
And let all of this swallow me whole
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6. |
Dark Paradise
02:26
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I’ll say goodbye
To what I thought I knew it meant to be alive
Run back and forth inside my head
I’ve been counting every reason just to try and make this all make sense
But I keep on coming back with all these
Wounds to stitch
No room to switch
All my panic into something I can
Use to fix
My selfishness
How long will I just sit
And watch the disconnection grow
Til it can’t be fixed
The damage done
That’s the consequence
Of burning bridges
That you shouldn’t have lit
Straight down
I just think it’s hard to pretend we’re straight now
I can’t shake them the complications
That I found
Searching for a future without you
Lusting for something that feels brand new
Wishing you could feel just like I do
Straight down
I can’t look myself in the mirror
Holding on til I can see clearer
Hoping I can piece things together
I’ve got myself to blame
Nobody else but me
For my lack of happiness
I just gave up and that was it
I just don’t think it’s right for me
To live so selfishly
Why do I always play pretend
Only holding back what I’m feeling within
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7. |
All Bite
03:07
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I’ll tear myself apart
But I guess
That’s the only way I know how to deal with this stress
Coming fast
Looking over my shoulder
It feels like I’m living with these problems over and over
I digress
Cuz I’m not focusing
On what’s best
For myself as far as I can see
The broken part of me
That I keep buried deep
Only heals when I wear it open on my sleeve
No bark all bite
I won’t let life just pass me by
Too many times
That I just threw myself aside
To finally find
Another wall I need to climb
I’m just over this
I’m just over calling quits
I told myself that I just can’t go and rely
On damaged goods to fill the hills up deep inside
I’ll never find the answers looking from behind
These broken eyes
They never looked quite satisfied
So Here we go again
Everything I put together fell apart within
But its hard
When I’m not positive
Where to put the pieces found that aren’t worth salvaging
Cuz it’s wrong
That I keep focusing
On everything except the problem put in front of me
I keep ignoring things
Instead of finding peace
In hopes that everything eventually will in fall place
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8. |
B3ND_BUDGE
02:54
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I’ve been out of touch
Losing feeling but the pain I used as my crutch
There’s nothing left inside my head like there ever was
There’s a reason I won’t bend I won’t ever budge
I think back honestly
On every time I didn’t live my life with honesty
Cuz that’s not who I want to be
Cuz I don’t want to face life hostilely
But that’s hard when I live constantly
In denial bout the lies that I hide in me
Is this all my in head
Just made up again
I’ll just bury all my doubts deep underground
Make something from nothing
I’ll always fixate on
I keep running to the past to fix myself
Find nothing to help me
I’m always searching wrong
Too many times
I didn’t know that I was on the edge
Of falling back
Into old habits I regret
I’ll just bury all my doubts deep underground
Make something from nothing
I’ll always fixate on
So did I do enough
With all the time I spent
I’ve been giving up
Or was this all for nothing
Pathetic bluffing
Cuz I just think its only right that I live for something
I can’t shake it off
Every time I think about it I just pay the cost
I can’t help but feel more lost
Every time I take a step I’m tripping over lust
But it’s hard when I keep losing trust
In myself now I keep on living in a rut
Its all my in head
Just made up again
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9. |
Counterfeit
03:12
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I’ve been living real fast
Living everyday like it could just be my last
Cause I know
everything you think you put in the past
Always finds a way to come around and kick you in the ass
But that’s cool
I can see
That everybody talks everybody talks like they know
Best for me
Like anybody lives anybody lives happily
I won’t fade out
My life’s disguised
As a gift I’m handed that I try to hide
When all along I’ve just been told to swallow pride
I’m sick of doing this on my own
I’ll be fine
I just want to find my home
I’ll Fortify
Every wall I built around me
I won’t apologize
I’m just building myself up to the ceiling
I won’t break out
I’ll face myself
Take a real good look inside
Exposing all the thoughts you hide
Take a real good look inside
And tell me everything you find
And if you’re really satisfied
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10. |
N2
03:39
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Woke up the same way
Never feels like a new day
Always stuck in a bad dream
Why can’t I wake up
But how can I face this
When I’m self medicated
I’m just filled up with hatred
Rotting to the bone
I was on my own
Just staring at the phone
Left here thinking bout the people
And the places I call home
I’m so confused
I know I’ll sort it out
And find some common ground
I just need to find the pieces
That I know will fill this hole
So stay way
I’m not what you think
I didn’t wanna be this
Broken I can feel it
Down to my bones
But I should’ve known
This isn’t how I heal this
Selfish in my dealings
I don’t know how to fix myself for you
Well do you
Cuz I just play it off well
Playing dumb still
Waiting for you
While I’m just pulling myself in two
I’ve been running in circles
Looking for what’s essential
Only finding residual
It’s just not enough
Things got so complicated
Can you feel my frustration
It’s the only foundation
I keep putting up
I play pretend
With what I’m feeling within
I’m pushing everyone away
That gives a fuck about me
So I’ll just end up alone
It ends up feeling like home
But that’s okay cuz I’ve been dealing with these thoughts on my own
I’ll just pull myself in two
Can’t you feel the weight Get heavier with time
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11. |
Play Pretend
03:11
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I’ve been looking for some peace
For some happiness
But the pain is all I really comprehend
I Hit a wall
Thought it’d fall
I just can’t pretend
That I didn’t think about it til the very end
But that’s okay cuz I’ll just do this again
I’m all talk
I can’t get over the things I’m convinced are my fault
It’s a curse that I just can’t reverse
But that’s okay I’d rather live with pain
Than live in life in vain
Fade out fade out
I don’t wanna be kept around
Where I know that I’m not wanted
I’m just holding on for nothing
Think back I was over the fence
But I froze
Regret all the choices I made
But I know
How I act
Lately feels kinda whack
But that doesn’t just excuse
The damage that I produce
I always thought that this couldn’t be me
Now I lost
Everything that’s feels important to me
At what cost
In the end
I just tripped up again
Now I’m playing pretend
I’m playing pretend to agree
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12. |
I Don't Really Care
03:45
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I’m living fast
I won’t fight my past
So I can find a way to pull myself up
out of this hell
I built for myself
It’s hard to believe I know
But that’s the fantasy
I filled up with fallacy
I don’t think it’s right for me
To force things selfishly
I know all along
I was busy focused on
How I was wronged
Instead of fixing issues I run
I don’t really care
Where I go from here
Just get me out of this mess
Get me out of my head
Cuz I felt
Weighed down
By doubt
Alway question how
I don’t belong
Where did I go wrong
I don’t really wanna see
The darkest parts of me
Shine some light into my life
And let it breathe
I’m sinking lower and lower and lower again
I’m sinking down to the bottom
Right where I began
In the back of my head
I always try to make sense
Of all the answers that I find
From searching deep down within
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Belmont Chicago, Illinois
Chicago Pop Punk
Taz Johnson: Vocals
Brian Lada: Drums
Sam Patt: Guitar/Back up vocals
Alex Weiringa: Bass Guitar/back up vocals
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